It's kind of surprising how many people who are - to most people looking at them from the "outside" - fairly constantly worried if they are a "screw up."

I do it to myself an awful lot. I ask myself why I don't have more papers published, why I don't have a burning ambition to be at a Research I school writing grants and staying in the lab until 2 am...

I don't know. I hope that old saw about "no one ever says on their deathbed that they wish they spent more time at work" is actually true. I hate feeling guilty for taking relaxation time.
 

If it's any consolation, if you were at a Research I school writing grants, you wouldn't be staying in lab at 2 am. You'd have grad students taking that shift for you.

And if I could figure out more efficient ways to do things, I definitely won't say no to the free time (even with the guilt).
 

Where I work, you want something fixed, you call the girl: she's the one who actually knows how it works.
 

I was hired in a job to fix and break computer programming, and I'm a girl. However, my parents also got me boy toys as child if I showed interesting in the items. They just wanted me to be happy, too.